[The
hardest thing about growing up is] the feeling I get in my stomach,
wondering if Im going to screw up everything for myself. I wonder if everything will work out, I wonder if I can live on my own later. I worry about everythingIm paranoid. But its the hardest thing. That and saying goodbye to all the things you knew before whether it be a friend, family member, memory, or just your attitude. Yeah,
that really bites: losing the attitude of a child where everything is
so amazing and youre so happythen all of the sudden, youre [pissed off]
all the time and worried about whats going to happen and then you
discover what can only be called phantom worries. A plague of the teenage years, full of worries like Am I self-centered? Inadequate? Unprepared? Lazy? Useless? Psychotic? And they never seem to stop. There is no escape.
You stay silent, so afraid to engage, in fear that you'll go getting carried away. ** I'd rather have your hatred than your apathy / apathetic ambivalence. Your indifference is more painful than your ire. ** Give me anger, just don't give me fake smiles / plaster a smile on your face (to appease me) ** Your indifferent posture hurts much more than your ire ** Just going through the motions, I'm an empty husk when you look at me. ** I can't have it all, but I want you to have a chance to ** Not knowing if you're okay makes it hard for me to be. ** The indifference differential / different / indifferent ... [word play] ** Crucial crushing credibility [word play] ** Wonderful wind tremble fright things pretty in daylight go bump / sound scary / take harrowing looks into your soul at night
Comments
Post a Comment