maybe i should just stop trying so hard. i mean, i still need to be focused writing reading singing laughing cooking but i can loosen up and not be a prescriptionist about everything or perhaps not.
i am starting to come to terms: you'll never look at me the way he did. and that's okay because you're melting ice and i'll savor you as long as i can but we'll never be more than temporary sure, that time has stretched past an anniversary but the only significance is what i attach and it takes a lot of work to be the only one celebrating your words might not be empty but they feel light as feathers when you can't back them up another world, another life maybe but i can't subsist on your scraps and i've made all the excuses i could to delay my return to the world so we'll go through the motions fill the emptiness with each other a little longer but before too long i'm out the door